Journal of a Mother

It's been a long time since I sat, and shared.

Life is so busy, and it's so easy to get caught up in the everyday, the back and forth. It's too easy to forget to document life, and our feelings. I forget... I put it off.... and I regret it.
Today in our meetings we spoke of the importance of genealogy and I couldn't help feeling very impacted. I need to share my feelings so my posterity can know of my life, of my time here. What I learned, what I felt. It's not always been easy, and there are "THOSE" days. The hard ones, but beyond the "dark" days... this life is so beautiful. It's really teaching me... and I'm growing into a better person.
My mistakes have led me here, and so have my successes.

So here, I share. I'm not going to try and go back, to catch up on all the past months, when maybe I should have journaled, but instead I'm going to go from here.

Being the mom is incredible.
It's overwhelming, sure, but also so enriching. I find each day to be mundane when I wake, until it begins-- Then I am busy, I am flying from chore to chore, from a giggle with Corinne, to a sweet hug and smile from Kallin... to a moment of pure adoration for my oldest, who suddenly is so capable to do anything and everything (I'm the one adoring her, keep it straight).
I see these little precious moments I share with my kids. I see moments of excitement at the prospect of the happenings in Kenny's work. His goals are my goals. His plans are wonderful... and I can't wait to see him and hear of his day when he comes home.

That plain 'ole boring day becomes special.

Lately I have been struck with how fast my kids have grown up. My Corinne is showing more and more signs of being a big kid, she's able to keep up in conversation with the older kids, she has such a brilliant little wit! She's full of fun, and life really is her oyster! She attacks each day with vigor, excited to see what adventure lies in store. Kallin is so mature, and has grown to be so well balanced, so sweet natured. He continues to find this perfect balance of being smart, exciting, kind, hyper, gentle, goofy, and loving. He is this bright light, this force of all things new and amazing. He has adapted to each trial thrown his way, with such strength of character. Colette is blowing through childhood with such speed, I can't keep up. I hope I take advantage (full advantage) of this phase of her life, she is such an impressive girl. She's my right-hand, my helper my little mini-me. She's social, friendly and kind. She's got a great visual on who she is and where she's going, she has begun the battle to stand up for what she believes in, and who she is... and she's proving to stand firm, tall and with confidence. I'm so proud of her, and her strength.

Each day is another sun up, and sun down. Nothing remarkable to the naked eye. Nothing incredibly new happening... yet each day is a day I treasure... because it is mine. Because these people are so important to me. Each thing they do, say and celebrate is a truly special to me.
There's the moment of realization... my babies have grown into little people. I've gone from caring for the basics of my babies... cleaning them, changing them, feeding them... (which I still do) to watching them grow, helping them experience all the world has to offer. Encouraging them... to become who ever it is they are becoming.... and it's so awesome. It's a process truly my Father in Heaven can appreciate. He must feel the same way, watching us through our lives.
My children give me a special relationship with my Father... and I see now why he must celebrate our birth, hold us when we cry, and smile when we succeed. Because that is each day for me. Seeing the world through my children. Suddenly... each day is unlike any other, and each day holds such potential.

It's a beautiful life, a wonderful world...
I see it and I love every moment I am blessed to experience. What will come tomorrow?